DEFEATED

Have you ever felt this way- defeated? You had a vision. You put your energy into making that vision a reality only to meet opposition at every turn. Yet, you overcame each roadblock only to come to another. You come to that last roadblock, and there it is - the feeling of defeat. "This is NOT how it was supposed to turn out!"                                                                                                                   

I have the problem of only seeing the here and now - forgetting what God has done for me in the past and not seeing the good that can come in the future. I like things to happen in my timing and often forget that God's timing is PERFECT! He has proved to me so many times that if I just rest in His timing, knowing He is sovereign- He does more than I could ever ask or imagine.                  

So, I hit that roadblock. I forget about all the good that has come from the energy that I put into that vision. I forget that God is bigger than whatever has made me feel defeated. I begin to question, "Is it really worth it- the hard work, putting yourself out there, the feeling of hurt when it did not turn out how you thought." I begin to think that it's just easier not to care so much- you don't get as hurt that way.                

Then I remember God! He is sovereign, He gave me this passion, and He is bigger than this roadblock. What I think didn't turn out right can be made beautiful IN HIS TIME. When the focus turns to God, I start remembering the good that He has done with my energy, the lessons I learned through the roadblocks, and I can rest knowing His timing is always perfect.