Striving After Wind

As I sit reading my Bible this morning, I need encouragement. The past 2 days have been, well, pretty cruddy. As a homeschooling mom, when your kids all of a sudden "forget" all that you have taught them over the past several months, it makes for some long days. When the housework is never ending, the to do list is a mile long, the 30 hours of continuing education you need to complete are barely touched, the plans for the kids 2016-2017 school year need to be figured out, and other responsibilities need to be met, it leaves a mom feeling quite overwhelmed.

So, as I sit reading my Bible, these are the words that come from the pages of Ecclesiastes - "Vanity of vanities! All is vanity. What does man gain by all the toil at which he toils under the sun?" And, "All streams run to the sea, but the sea is not full...All things are full of weariness; a man cannot utter it; the eye is not satisfied with seeing, nor the ear filled with hearing."

Well, at first look, these words seem quite depressing! "All is vanity (which, by the way, means worthless and futile)...what does a man gain by all the toil..." These words DO NOT seem to give much hope. Even in verse 13 of Ecclesiastes chapter 1, Solomon calls the work that God has given to man "an unhappy business," and later in the chapter equates it to "striving after wind." But, as I read these verses over and over, I begin seeing that there is encouragement to be found here.

On this earth, we are dealing with the effects of sin. When Adam and Eve sinned, the ground was cursed. Genesis 3:19 says, "By the sweat of your face you shall eat bread." So, yes, we have work set before us. The to do lists and the work before us will never fully be satisfied, just like without Christ in my life, I will never fully be satisfied. And that, dear friends, is where I find the hope and encouragement that I need this morning... In Jesus Christ. You see, in Christ, my story doesn't end in worthless and futile work. I have a God who has overcome the effects of sin in my life. I have a God who makes things that are futile and worthless, worthy. I have a God who brings satisfaction to an empty life. I have a God who gives purpose even in the mundane work of this life.

Oh Father, thank you for hope through Jesus Christ. Thank you for satisfaction in Him. Thank you that sin and death was not the end of the story. Thank you for life and purpose even in the everyday toil of this life.

Friends, may you feel God's grace upon your life today. As you go through your work, may you feel purpose through Jesus Christ.

Amazing Grace

As the sun rose this morning, I sat in my chair reading. As my still tired eyes wondered the page of this Scripture passage that I had read many times, new verses came alive. I was reading Ephesians 2:1-10. Most of the time the verses that are focused on in this passage are verses 8-10, "For by grace you have been saved through faith, And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God, not a result of works, so that no one may boast. For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them." I have gained much from just those 3 verses, but in not taking the time to focus on the other verses in this passage, I have missed out.

As I started in verses 1 and 2 the words I read were, "And you were dead in the trespasses and sins in which you once walked." Have you taken God's Word and read it like it is only talking to you? And I was dead in my trespasses and sins. Yes, me. Dead and lifeless in my sin- doing what seemed right to me, following the desires of my flesh, and living in disobedience. Once Adam and Eve sinned, it infected EVERYONE. When we are born, the sin nature is there, and we are unable to change ourselves. We, in our sin, are open to the just wrath of God who is holy and hates sin.

As I sat thinking of the first 3 verses of Ephesians 2, it seems pretty grim. Pretty hopeless. Pretty depressing. Who wants to be considered dead in their sin- lifeless, open to the wrath of God? But we are not left without hope. "BUT GOD, being rich in mercy, because of the great love with which He loved us, even when we were dead in trespasses, made us alive together with Christ- by grace you have been saved" (verses 4-5). Oh, how these verses came to life for me this morning! BUT GOD, through His great mercy and because He loves me. Did you get that? Because He loves me! Even when I was stuck in sin and lifeless, He loved me and made me alive. Yes, made me alive together with Christ. By His grace, I have been saved.

And, guess what! It doesn't end there! We are told in verse 6 that He raised us up and seated us with Him. Why? "so that in the coming ages He might show the immeasurable riches of His grace in kindness toward us in Christ Jesus" (verse 7). Immeasurable means exceeding, too large, extensive, untold, and extreme to measure. God's grace is too vast to imagine, and He wants to show me the vast riches of His grace in kindness through Jesus Christ. Yes, the same Christ who died for my sins and gave me life. Oh, how my heart should sing His praises!

Only by God's grace have I been saved, and by His grace He worked to establish faith in my heart. My salvation is in no way, shape, or form because of anything that I have done. It is an amazing, truly awesome GIFT from my most gracious and loving God. In response to God's great salvation and work in  my life, good works should be present, but they do not earn my salvation. God created me, He made me whole in Jesus Christ, He has a  plan for me, and He has orchestrated things for me to do, "Good works are not the root of our redemption, but they are the necessary fruit" (Gospel Transformation Bible).

Wow, Lord, my mind is blown thinking about your immeasurable grace. Forgive me for taking it for granted and not appreciating it like I should. I am nothing apart from You. I am frail and so many times my faith is so weak. Thank You for loving me despite my ugliness. Thank You for working faith in me so that I can taste the riches of Your grace. Thank you that although there is nothing good in me, there is good in You; and You work some of that good through me. Help me be spiritually wide awake to do the work You have set before me. Oh, Father, thank You for GRACE!

Marvelous grace of our loving Lord. 

Grace that exceeds our sin and our guilt!

Yonder on Calvary's mount outpoured,

There where the blood of the Lamb was spilled.

Grace, grace, God's grace

Grace that will pardon and cleanse within;

Grace, grace, God's grace, 

Grace that is greater than all our sin. 

I pray today that you will be encouraged by focusing on the God who has bestowed upon us this amazing gift of grace because He loves YOU!

My God is Faithful

Sometimes you just have to sit and reflect. Last night and this morning, I have been so overwhelmed with God's mercy and grace in my life that I have had to sit and process. As I think back over the years and look through journal entries, I remember a time of frustration. Frustrated because I love missions, and as a busy homeschooling mom, my time was very limited. Frustrated because every opportunity that I would pursue, the door would close. Frustrated because I began having struggles and doubts in my Christian walk because of situations I was going through.

In April of 2013, my journal entry notes a day of prayer. One topic of prayer was for ministry opportunities. In July of 2013 I wrote, "Each day I am trusting God to help me be spiritually wide awake. Seeing and meeting the needs right where I am." Through the words of Christine Caine in her book Undaunted, God began showing me that my mission field at that moment in my life needed to be my home and my community. Striving to be faithful in the everyday, ordinary life and being satisfied where He had me.

Yes, the desire for serving in other areas of mission work was still very strong, but I began to realize that if God wanted me to be involved in it, He would provide the way. I honestly began praying that if God wanted me to be a part of a ministry, He would drop it in my lap.

In March of 2014, my husband Chris went to a men's supper where Greg Pendarvis with Victory Sports Outreach was the speaker. I knew the name and knew he was related to me, but I had never met him. That supper led to Chris calling me on the way home and telling me, "You need to get in contact with your cousin. You need to be involved in his ministry." I met Greg and his family for the first time in July of 2014 when my kids and I arrived in St. George for our first mission trip with Victory Sports Outreach. And yes, God provided a ministry not only for me to be involved with, but my kids also.

Since that trip a little over a year ago, God has continued to move. Sometimes in ways I didn't understand or like, but always for my good because He is faithful. . He has placed us in a mission-minded church with a strong children's ministry. He has allowed us to serve for a second time with Victory Sports in St. George. He provides opportunities in the everyday and mundane.

As I sit here and reflect on my weekend, my heart is full, and I am thankful. Thankful for the opportunity to serve with my Sunday School class on Saturday night to throw a community event to raise funds for Child Evangelism Fellowship. Thankful to witness a baptism on Sunday and hear my cousin Greg give glory to God for what He is doing through Victory Sports. Thankful to have time with Greg and Mia who have brought so much encouragement to my life in this past year. Thankful for what God is doing in my children's lives. Thankful for what God is doing in my life.

What blows me away in these circumstances in my life is God's faithfulness, mercy, and grace. I don't deserve His love or to be used by Him. By His mercy and grace, He chose to love me despite my lack of love, my unfaithfulness, and yes, sometimes anger towards Him. It is quite humbling to reflect back on how God has answered my prayer. He is always at work. Sometimes we don't understand our circumstances, but God is working to grow us and put us in the place He wants us to be. How amazing to think that He has a plan for each of our lives. I don't know your situation today, but God does. Maybe you have frustrations, hurts, anger. God knows every detail of our lives. He knows the desires of our hearts. He answers prayer, it's not always on the timeline we think, and it's not always in the way that we thought it would be, but He is faithful and full of mercy and grace. I pray you can rest in His faithfulness today.

"Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful." Hebrews 10:23

Victory in Jesus

"But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ." 1 Corinthians 15:57

This morning I sit quietly at my desk, my heart so full from what I have experienced this  past week. For 5 days I have been surrounded by excited children and teenagers who were participating in Victory Sports Camp in St. George. I have to admit, I absolutely loved our bright shirts this week. As I looked out at our bright orange and red "fire" shirts, I couldn't help but think of the light who is Jesus Christ driving out the darkness of sin. John 1:5 says, "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it."

Each morning Coach P went over the colors to present Jesus Christ and salvation to the campers. As we dismissed to the separate sports, I loved hearing the excitement in children's voices and seeing the many smiling faces. Mid morning, my heart would swell as I looked out at all the children gathered in circles around their leaders as they had devotions.

My mornings were busy applying band-aids and ice packs. and sometimes just talking and spending time with a child who needed to rest and cool down. I loved every minute of it and was so thankful for no major injuries and God's protection of the campers and leaders.

In the afternoons I was so blessed to be able to help in a new station called GROW. This station gave the children the tools that they need to further grow in their relationship with Jesus Christ. It was such a blessing to hear the children pray with their leaders, help them learn to find passages of Scripture in their new Bibles so they could read it on their own, and hear the leaders share their testimonies with the children as they gave examples of being a witness.

God moved this week. He was present and working in many lives. Seeds were planted, and I am encouraged by God's promise in Philippines 1:6- "And I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ."

Not only did God work in campers lives, He worked in leaders lives, and He worked in my families lives. I loved when one of the leaders told the children in his group that when God works in their lives and changes them, it also changes the lives of the leaders. It was amazing to see God at work this week- meeting specific needs for my family, actively working in campers and leaders lives, bringing children and teenagers unto Himself, and bringing a community together through the love of Jesus Christ.

My God is an awesome God. My God is Light. My God is Mighty to Save. My God is a Holy God full of Love and Grace. I pray that you know my God. To Him be the Glory!

Thanks, God

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your request to God."

Philippians 4:6

Some days you wake up feeling drained both mentally and physically. So much is on your mind, so many friends and family who are going through struggles and need prayer, and for some reason pain from 28 years ago runs deep today. You just want to pull the covers back up over your head, but children will be waking soon, animals need to be fed, and the to-do list is over a mile long. 

What do you do? How are you going to get through this day and get everything done in the midst of feeling like you just want to stay wrapped up in the covers?

For me, I have to look up. Focus on the positive and all that God is and what He has done and is doing in my life. Quite honestly, it can be a fight to change your focus to Christ, and sometimes I just don't have the energy. Ann Voskamp's mother-in-law told her the devil flees from hymns. So guess what, hymns are playing right now. Also, I have seen the impact that actively thanking God has on changing my perspective. So, a walk around the yard reveals much to be grateful for. 

       

"Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." I Thessalonians 5:16-18

"The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song." Psalm 28:7                                                                          

                                                   

The same God that created the beauty that I see around me everyday in the flowers and animals, in the clouds and the sky, the mighty trees and the vast galaxies- that same God loves and cares about me. And no matter how I feel or what I am anxious about, He is with me.

"So then, just as you received Christ Jesus as Lord, continue to live in Him, rooted and built up in Him, strengthened in the faith as you were taught, and overflowing with thankfulness."

 Colossians 2:6-7

Hope

My heart breaks this morning. The headlines tell of another mass shooting, another tragedy. This one in a church. It can be so overwhelming- so much evil, hurt, and pain in this fallen world that we call our home.

Many headlines lately have caused my mind to swirl. These tragedies are not new and have happened for centuries all over the world, but with social media, we hear about so much that happens. I'm not sure that our human minds were made to handle all of that.

 Respect for human life seems to be lacking. Our society is so consumed with self, hate, and broken identities. I think about it often, that verse in Genesis that talks about man being created in the image of God. How I wonder if people believed that, if life would be considered so much more sacred.

I don't have all the answers. I have questions myself. I do however believe in a sovereign God who does have all the answers. When sin entered the beautiful world that God created, what a tragedy that was! But as Sally Loyd- Jones writes in the Jesus Storybook Bible, "It will not always be so! I [God] will come to rescue you! And when I do, I'm going to do battle against the snake [Satan]. I'll get rid of the sin and the dark and the sadness you let in here. I'm coming back for you! And He would."So we do have hope in the midst of tragedy.

As I sit in my yard this morning reflecting in the quiet, I will choose to speak truth to myself from God's Word. I will choose to focus on the One who does offer hope of a better future and One who can bring meaning to life. And yes, I will choose to pray.

All over facebook there is #prayforcharleston. Are we actually praying? Are we believing that God can heal, protect, and change lives? Do we truly have faith that He can bring peace in the midst of this storm?

I challenge you today, Yes, PRAY; Yes, HAVE FAITH; Yes, BELIEVE; but don't stop there. ACT upon that faith. Touch someones life today, make someone feel special. We are created in the image of God. Make people feel like their lives matter. Our world is desperately in need of love and Christians stepping up and bringing the light in darkness and offering hope.

To My Girl

My Dear Girl,

Today we sat on the swing set watching the horses graze in the yard. Then, I hoisted you up, and you rode bare back while I led the horses around the yard. I sit now feeling thankful and blessed.

Yesterday I read an article by Ann Voskamp. Girls younger than you being sold and mistreated. Girls torn from their families and their poor hearts being ripped apart. I got up with a heavy heart, broken for these young ones.

I know that God loves you both. He has a plan for each of you, but why some have to endure such horror, I cannot say. I can only trust His promises, and He gives them the same promises that He gives you. I encourage you to read His promises, memorize His promises, keep them in your heart because those promises are what get you through this life.

My Dear Girl, I pray that you do not take this life that God has given you for granted. You have so many blessings in your life right now. I hope that you will always look at the big picture. In our society, it becomes easy to be near sighted and only look at the things that affect you right here and right now. As Christians, God calls us to love and serve others. That is not the norm for the American middle class. I pray that we don't become so inward that we neglect to see the needs of others around us. Don't get caught up in the petty squabbles that will distract you from focusing on Christ and His work through you. Remember Matthew 6:19-21, "Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal, but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

You have so much life, passion, and spunk. You have pushed me to do things that I thought were impossible. You have made me grow and become a better person. I see your smile when you do something for someone else. I love the "thank-yous" you leave for waiters and waitresses at restaurants. Keep doing for others. Keep your eyes open and be ready to share God's love with others. Keep trusting Him to help you grow and to mold you into the person He wants you to be. He has big plans for you, and I am so glad that I get to be your mom and see you grow in His love.

Love you bunches!
Mom